In my office last week, a woman, renowned in the community, fessed up.
“I feel like I’m doing a whole lot, but none of it well,” she stated, tears forming in the corners of her eyes.
My heart broke for her. I knew how she felt.
The start of the school year is an adjustment for EVERYONE… not just the kids. While they are adjusting to a different sleep schedule, so am I. And I’m trying to figure out three different schools and four sets of teachers. There were four sets of back to school paperwork to fill out. While the school supply shopping was done for the younger two, the older two came home with lists midweek through, and then let’s not forget a gal who had her first high school football game to cheer at and a son who was eligible to get his learner’s permit… oh and yeah…. a thirteenth birthday.
And honestly? None of it well.
I made mistakes at work. I faltered at home.
And finally, I broke down to my husband (oblivious – and in his defense, as most men are) and fessed up.
Except it was more like a meltdown.
“What can I do to help?” he asked.
“Can you do a load of laundry?” I asked. He nodded.
And then, to make sure he understood the severity of what I had just asked him, I went on to say, “because if a load of my clothes are not done tonight, I will be forced to turn underwear inside out tomorrow.”
I guess it was some what funny. But in making sure that HE had clean work clothes, I neglected to make sure that I had clean clothes. And because HE had clean work clothes, he was oblivious to the fact that I had gotten behind.
And kids? Shoot. They have enough clothes to last for months.
But as I looked around the house, and at my ever growing to do list, and how I was going to fit it all in….
I felt exactly like that woman sitting across from my desk did…
Yes, I’m doing alot. But I’m not doing any of it well.
A weekend off and I feel better. Not as overwhelmed. But as I told her, I had to remind myself of several things.
- If the devil doesn’t make you bad, he’ll make you busy. I was easily distracted Him all week.
- “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28 (NIV)
- Even Jesus took a nap. (Luke 8:23)
I don’t feel as overwhelmed, although I’m still busy. As bad as I felt, I did turn down a major commitment at church… something I’m so passionate about … but it’s time to let someone else step up to the plate. Can I help? Yes. Can I do it all? No.
And that’s okay.
Doing a whole lot is okay, but once you get to a point where none of it is well, it’s time to readjust. And hopefully, catch it before it gets that far again.
I feel better already.
Are you feeling overwhelmed? How can I pray for you today?
Until next time…