Have you ever just lost it?
I mean, LOST IT. Lost it to the point where you children are scared. (And not I’m going to pretend like I’m scared so she’ll shut up scared, but leaving the scene of the incident and won’t come out of their rooms until the all-clear has been given scared.)
If you’re a mother, I know you have.
If you haven’t, I need a little of whatever you have… (if it’s legal of course.)
I try so hard to keep it together. I really do. I don’t want to be the one that is yelling all the time. Yelling doesn’t make it better although at the time it feels GOOD. But the damage is so vast!
Last week, I had a thing start pushing for something. I was calm and staked my claim – No. But this thing kept at it… pushing and pushing and pushing.
And I remained calm. I continued to say no.
And this thing pushed one more time.
I came so unglued that there was no residue of where I had once been held together. I was in the face. I was yelling. I was hot.
I was far from Christ.
I was far from the role model that I want to be for those around me, especially my children.
Boy can teenagers bring out the devil in you or what?
I don’t want to be like that. I don’t want to come unglued…with my children, at my job, because things don’t go my way.
That’s not who I want to be.
But it’s freaky.
This book is me.
A few quotes that I’ve related to:
“I know what it’s like to praise God one minute and in the next minute scream and yell at my child ” p.14
“God gave us emotions so we could experience life not so we could destroy it.” p.16
“I can face things that are out of my control and not act out of control.” p.23
“We can’t always fix our circumstances, but we can fix our minds on God.” p.28
Hope. And a focus on imperfect progress.
If you struggle with coming unglued, it’s not too late to join us in our Bible Study.
Until next time….